The hardest thing I have ever done is realizing my worth and learning to love someone from a distance. You see, I was conditioned to love people and stay loyal with all my might. In the process, I was never taught how to love and stay loyal to myself.
I thought being in a relationship meant doing everything in my power to make my partner happy and vise versa. I learned the hard way that doing this left me powerless. By me placing responsibility for my happiness on someone else, left me feeling dissatisfied, betrayed, confused and angry.
Being in this state for a while and needing to feel better, I relinquished the source of it all. In the process, I learned to love unconditionally. I know I will always love this person because by his side, I learned to love myself and recognize all the areas in me, I need to address and heal.
I learned to love unconditionally by learning to meet and accept others where they are in their own journey. I learned to decipher and identify the things that belong to me, that I must work on and heal, and let go of the things that are not for me to change. I learned to protect my mind, heart and soul by focusing on everything and everyone that aligns with my happiness. I no longer feel guilty for not spending time and energy on the things and people that contradict all that supports my well being.
it hasn’t been easy. I am and will continue to be work on progress. I still find myself giving myself permission to love from a distance everyone and everything that does not support and encourage my happiness. But, I can tell you today, that I am my best self and I will continue to get better because I enjoy feeling ease, loved, comfort, excitement, balanced, empowered and free.