The hardest thing I have ever done is realizing my worth and learning to love someone from a distance. You see, I was conditioned to love people and stay loyal with all my might. In the process, I was never taught how to love and stay loyal to myself.
I thought being in a relationship meant doing everything in my power to make my partner happy and vise versa. I learned the hard way that doing this left me powerless. By me placing responsibility for my happiness on someone else, left me feeling dissatisfied, betrayed, confused and angry.
Being in this state for a while and needing to feel better, I relinquished the source of it all. In the process, I learned to love unconditionally. I know I will always love this person because by his side, I learned to love myself and recognize all the areas in me, I need to address and heal.
I learned to love unconditionally by learning to meet and accept others where they are in their own journey. I learned to decipher and identify the things that belong to me, that I must work on and heal, and let go of the things that are not for me to change. I learned to protect my mind, heart and soul by focusing on everything and everyone that aligns with my happiness. I no longer feel guilty for not spending time and energy on the things and people that contradict all that supports my well being.
it hasn’t been easy. I am and will continue to be work on progress. I still find myself giving myself permission to love from a distance everyone and everything that does not support and encourage my happiness. But, I can tell you today, that I am my best self and I will continue to get better because I enjoy feeling ease, loved, comfort, excitement, balanced, empowered and free.
Many of us are experiencing life according to our current understanding of it. This may be ease, love, gratitude, struggle, confusion or pain. The state in which we find ourselves correlates with the experience and the choices we are currently making.
Our constant thoughts currently dictate how we feel and influence our decisions and response to our current experience. But, what if I tell you that the longer you chose to focus in your negative emotions, the longer your experience will remain? Would you allow your confusion and your pain respond to this knowing? Or, would you allow your desired feeling dictate how you chose to deal with your current experience?
You see, you have a choice. You get to decide the type of experience, life you get to live. In order for this to happen, you must be willing to accept responsibility for your happiness. Focusing on others and the external to influence your happiness, sets you up for disappointment and other painful emotions; because no one knows, uunderstands, feels you better than yourself.
Depending and relying on others to modify their existence, life to meet your expectations and desires, it is not only selfish, but most importantly, it is unrealistic. You are essentially asking everyone in your life to stop living to focus on you. Do you really want to be responsible for everyone’s life?
The only control you have, is over yourself. You control your experience by intentionally and mindfully aligning your thoughts, feelings and behavior according to the life and experience you desire to have. It is your responsibility to decide every minute of your exitance, how you want to feel. Make it your intention to focus on your desired feeling, and push away everything and everyone that it’s not aligned with your desired intention. Deciding how you want to experience life starting today, will allow you to focus your attention and intention to all that supports your ease, love and happiness.
There’s a sense in the air that a new beginning is arriving. Although I don’t know what it brings, I anxiously wait on it. I know that it’s change, a new opportunity to reach a different level of consciousness and empathy.
I am eager to know what it is. I am ready to accept all that it brings. I know it’s for my highest good. So thank you new beginning, whatever you might be. You already bring much hope, contentment and gratitude.
May your arrival align my thoughts, words and actions to help others see, accept and recognize their best self through healing and self love.
Closed doors or missed opportunities are signs of greater things to come.